Well this most certainly has been an interesting week. Jason’s Birthday was much to celebrate, I can tell he had a good time, possibly even too much of a good time. I think he owes me a car wash. Wednesday was an eye-opening experience, I had much to think about all day, mostly about how lucky I truly am in my life, and how I need to change my actions to aviod the fall into an inescapable hole. The idea of getting 12 hours of sleep on a weeknight was foreign to me, but I rather liked it. That allowed me to be a fool later in the week as well and aviod as much sleep as possible. To be perfectly honest, I could have just gotten the “required” amount of sleep but I had more appealing options. Either way I am happy witht he way things seem to unfold in my life. I find it hard to believe that someone’s life is so bleak that they could have nothing exciting or “non-depressing” to write in their blog. But I guess that’s my take on things, not always the most realistic but at least pleasing and less stressful.

The past weekend was well …… shall we say interesting. It has always been fun spending time with the Dutch and German kids, and this time was no different. Just fun in a different city, THE big city, Chicago. First and possibly best, a stop at Grassano’s Pizza for their Legendary Pizza Puffs…….. mmmmmm Pizza Puffs ……… They got to meet my parents and see how quirky my family is, then spend some male bonding time watching football (and falling asleep). A good meal at Harrison’s which is apparently a microbrewery and steakhouse. Then into the city for the partying that evening. A little trip into Wrigleyville, which was a first for some, and was a good time to go and have a few beverages. It was overpriced, the 2 bars that I wouldve liked to go to were out of the question, one for a private party, the second for a $7 cover charge. It was still a good time, but well Rusty was a disappointment anyhow, I guess I shouldn’t have expected anything, this wasn’t Mulligan’s. Sunday lunch and the Bears-Lions Game at the Willow Crossing were great fun, the last of the good food, followed by a football game, a classic rivalry, that I would never miss. This also brought in some good bonding time with my brother and some interesting conversation with the waitress (what a cutie). And the drive back to Jason’s place to have dinner with his folks and head back to GR for the evening.

As with any drive, particulary the one from GR to Chicago and back there was time fro contemplation. I guess my biggest revelationof the week was that I need to truly figure out who I am. What makes me tick, then I can accurately portray myself to other people. Its not like I try to act any differently but I guess there is a difference, as noticed by some people. That just makes me think and I try to figure otu what it truly is that make me who I am. Still trying to figure that out, and that will take a while, so no promises on that anytime soon. But I guess these last few years have really helped me with this and I feel I can be more honest with myself and therefore with the rest of people out there. I wish I could be totally honest, but there is also that part of you that you hide so it doesn’t get hurt. I can only believe that this is a natural instinct to shield some of your pride, but I suppose it does lead to slight deception. On the plus side, I’m not so bad that I have to drink alone and figure these things out in the dark recesses of the apartment, it is becoming rather evident. That and I think I might be scared of the dark.