I know, it is soon for another post to this site, but I want to, or at least I feel as though I must. Tonight through a unfortunate revelation of my friends I now know that I cannot have what I though I most desired in life. I am still debating whether this is a wise decision or not. I had nearly decided where I wanted to see my life go, heck I still see some of that. Unfortunately it is not with the person I saw myself with. I really at this point cannot even comprehend how this will not work out, but I guess as the cards lay, that is where I will see them to fulfillment. How wonderful to see this start off the weekend, make me want to jump for joy really. No, actually it makes me even wonder why I am dealing in computers at all. All I do is perform the perfuctory job of mainting orders and seeing where this might disentegrate that I make my living. I do not really know how to interact with others or even how to talk to new people. Everytime I attempt a new conversation I see to find my foot in my mouth, but I at least see some point in continuing this path of growth and exploration.

Seriously, tonight puts everything into question. Everything I thought I knew now becomes unclear, and nothing else seems to reslove itself in the views of the important decision makers. I will take the advice of people who have been there before to just put what I thought I knew in my past and move on, before those things just become burdens tot he new life ahead of you. As hard as that is to say, it is even harder to believe. Even after proclaimed, this decision will be questioned and hopefully upheld to the same standards that have established the ideas. In any case, tonight was not a good night. I had hopes going in to the night that were uterly decimated by my friends to the point that I am wondering if I had the right idea in the first place. The world is subject to change, and if that means an impromper residence assignment, there are always subject to review. I don’t even know the idea of this post. All I know is that I hate Flo and I really wish there was some way to comprehend the change in my life, specifically the interaccting with other people. And on that note, It is time for me to go to sleep, goodnight all.