Go figure, I am thoroughly amused at the stats that I can gather from this site. Visitors, contries of visitors, hosts, search terms to find my site. Most amusing lately has been the search term which explain some of the country results. My results from Saudi Arabia are growing scarily, but more amazing are random searches for that execution video voming to my site. I guess my mention of vanberge as “berg” and the execution of Ryan Chapelle in the show 24 turn up some interesting results of my site. More surprisingly are teh order the results show up in Yahoo vs Google(or gurgle as I mis-spoke at work tonight). Speaking of work, apparently I was not supposed to go in to work tonight, I guess my wednesday shifts are over, but that was not posted as of my last day of work, nbor was it emailed to me. In fact the schedule I saw on Sunday, my last day of work, said i was working today 6-10, so I hung with that and observed some things with Darrin and helped Stacy with a few questions.

Tonight after work was a good time, it was a second trip to Mojo’s, the piano bar. The music was overall very amusing, some of the songs a repeat of what we heard last week, with several new songs and a few new players involved as well. Something abou ttonight sat wrong with me though, I enjoyed the time spent with Jason, Darrin, Jenn and Amy, but I know there is something wrong with me. I see so many attractive girls tonight at the bar, but rather than seeing them for who they are, I manage to compare them to a girl that I honestly barely know. A girl that was an object of my desire, and apparently still is, and for some reason I use her as a standard to compare against. Between the girls that looked like her tonight, and the one that reminded me of Izabela, my Polish Princess, my eyes were quite busy following the action. After a few beers even the girl Nate was hitting on last week seemed attractive. I will say that I enjoy the music, and the ability to sing to the music and the fact that so many other people know the words to the classics and even some country. Too bad Amy wasnt there for the hand jive, I would’ve loved to see Jenn and Amy do that.

Otherwise, I look forward to some sleep after getting to bed so late, and I look forward to seeing my father and brother this weekend. I just want to get back into the woods, and see them out there in the woods with me, and possibly bring back some memories from back in the day, though that is not really a problem. I remeber so many things of late that have happened in my past and what not, but I popped in the video of my HS senior drama class, the taping of Godspell that I did. Wow it was pretty bad, but I miss the people involved. I really dont talk to Tony, Shaylin or Matt anymore, not by choice either. But wow. I miss the days, and I want to redigitize it, since it was edited on a computer and Adobe premire after all. But those were the days. I miss the days and I know I will grow to miss my college days as I grow older and I just hope I still have the people that love me and want to spend time with me. Is that a step down, I doubt it, I just know that I want someone to share my joys, my losses, and everything in between with. Aside from Jason and Darrin.

Maybe I will have some time to evaluate thing sont eh Vigil weekend, maybe go beyond average advising to re-evaluate where I am and where I need to be. Maybe seeing Dad this weekend will help me out. In any case, I will finish off this bottle of Goose Island and go to bed.